Liam Payne’s sister says ‘it feels like all of him is being removed’ with fresh heartbreak
Liam Payne's sister Ruth Gibbins has spoken about the continued grief she still feels more than a year after her brother's sudden death.
Ruth, who is one of Liam’s two older sisters, posted a message on Instagram about how she’s been left heartbroken over the news that part of their school, St Peter’s Collegiate Academy in Wolverhampton, is being demolished.
She said the news felt like another part of her brother being removed from existence.
She wrote: "Hearing part of our senior school is being knocked down and having such clear memories of Liam waiting by my locker to ask for money off me all the time.
"Feels like all of him is being removed from the planet, all the places we’ve been are changing and he’s not here to change with him.
"A thousand tiny losses every single day."
Ruth also admitted she is still paralysed by grief daily in an emotional message, as well as saying that she was still suffering from a recurring nightmare about being in the One Direction star’s hotel room, but he could not hear her screaming for him.
She wrote: ‘I underestimated grief, woah, did I underestimate it. I am paralysed by it daily.
"I thought I had felt it before, but I know the losses before you were just intense sadness, you are the loss of my life, the one person who l will miss at every single occasion in my life.
"I’d taken for granted that my little brother would be there through life.
"My brain is locked on your last minutes on this earth, the unaccounted minutes, the minutes I will never have the answers to, the minutes that changed everything."
